We are One

March 3, 2010

Why can’t we all just get along? I know it seems rather “tree hugger” but it’s true. I dont see why we cant just get along. I hate this world. There is ALWAYS someone that a person cannot stand for some reason.

It may be because the girl in your high school lit. class who is a whore (or so you think) or perhaps she tans too much. Or it could be the girl who doesn’t really talk during class and when she expresses her own personal opinion, you laugh at her because you dont think the same way as her and she doesn’t conform to the “norm”. High school boys make fun of those who are not as built up and muscular- claiming that they are “weak”. When most of the time that is just simple not true. When jocks think that they are better than band geeks (and yes i can call them band geeks because i also fall into that category). I know quite a few high schools where the marching band or chess team seem to be more successful than the “sports” teams, whatever they may be. And then the marching band kids consider themselves to be extraordinarily smarter than everyone else in the school- YES you understand that there are five yards between the lines of the football field. And YES you understand your degrees of an angle and how many steps it should take you to move between those yard lines. but that does not make you incredibly smart.

I am not that smart and i still know the answers to everything listed above. i am proud to say that i dont remember most of algebra- except the quadratic equation— x= -b (+ or -) Sq. Root b^2 – 4ac ALL OVER 2a– haha. im proud. lol. So anyway, why does high school and the entire world have to be full of people who do not tolerate those around them . Yes, sometimes i am VERY guilty of this- i never claimed to be perfect.

But i really want to get to the root of this problem. Why do the cheerleaders make fun of the socially awkward girls and why do the colorguard girls make fun of the cheerleaders but not the dance team….??????? Why do these groups pretend to like each other, and then go behind closed doors to BASH THEM?!?!?! i know plenty of people who are completely guilty of this- myself included.

I guess my real question is::: WHY ARE PEOPLE MEAN? why do we feel the need to be venomous and evil? Is it a need??? NO. Does it bring something interesting into our lives? I dont think so. So what is it then? Why are high school girls caddy bitches and why are the guys so thick headed? Why can’t we all just get along? High school is so stupid. People are getting to that point in life where they want to milk “daddy” for all he’s worth before they go off to college. the girls want more designer purses and the guys want as many cars and iPods as they can get. At my school its all about getting the hottest phone or the newest Coach (EWWW) purse. It’s sooo lame and materialistic. high school kids just need to GROW THE HELL UP! ….and get a job to pay for their own shit. Sorry- little rant.

Gay Marriage

February 3, 2010

I Believe in a Thing Called Love

I believe that love comes and goes. I believe that love is unfair and just all at the same time. I believe that you do not choose who you love romantically. I believe that we are all put on this earth to fall in love with someone and build a life with them. Even with the current divorce rate, I believe in marriage. I believe that you can find someone to settle down with. I believe in love and marriage.

Now, nowhere in there did I say that I only believe in heterosexual love. Nowhere did I state that I only believe in heterosexual marriage. I believe that love is love. You cannot control who you love. If you ever find someone that can, let me know. So you see, I believe that you can never choose who you love. And that brings me to the point of my composition: love knows no gender, race or age- we love who we love. Love does not have eyes. It does not choose who you love based on physical appearances. Love just happens. No one and no law can change that. When you love someone so completely, shouldn’t you marry them? The answer to that is quite easy. Yes. People get married to prove their love for each other- to seal their love in an everlasting vow. However, not all people are allowed such bliss.

Homosexuals have been preyed upon for many years. They have been considered mentally deranged and unstable up until the late 20th century.  Homosexuality is an illness, and a mental one at that. It can be treated and eradicated, right? Wrong. The theory that homosexuals were mentally disturbed was soon scrutinized because it failed to provide any concrete or scientific proof. As results from such research were gathered, professionals in medicine, mental health, and the behavioral and social sciences reached the conclusion that it was inaccurate to classify homosexuality as a mental disorder.

How on earth can you blame gays? Love does not see gender. I love my girl friends and my sister. Yes, it is a different kind of love- but it is still love. How can someone sit upon a judge’s bench and tell you that you cannot marry the one you desperately love because they happen to be the same gender as you? I thought our country was better than that. I thought we had progressed into accepting all people. Once white men thought that black men were not as good as them. Now we hold hands as brothers- not enemies. White men used to enslave these people- keeping them from doing their will. We ruled it unconstitutional to legislate that a black man cannot do the same things as a white man. So tell me, how is it that we can tell a man, not matter what race he may be, that he cannot marry the man he loves?

What is it that makes gay marriage so wrong? We used to think that black people were “wrong”. In the end, it turned out to be the white men that were wrong. It makes me sick to think that just thirty years ago we didn’t accept different colored people. Maybe we don’t accept gays because of our religions. Many religions think that homosexual acts are sinful. They believe that sexual intimacy belongs only within the marital relationship of a man and a woman. They believe that homosexuality is contrary to their God’s plan. Many things in the Bible are legal today that are said to be illegal in the book. In the Bible it states that things such as divorce, cursing and even lying are illegal- so why aren’t they in our country? So why is it that they can decide to deny marriage based on religious beliefs? These people are arrogant and evil for depriving these gays of their happiness- which does not affect them at all. I do not see how someone’s choice to love another of the same gender actually affects religious people. Sure, it may be against their God’s wishes- but not everyone believes in that God. We are able to believe what we want because of separation of church and state and freedom of religion. If marriage were about religion, people would have to go to the church to receive a marriage license. However, you can easily go down to your local courthouse to apply for one…not a church!

I would love to meet a person who truly believes that it is okay to tell people who they are allowed to marry. Marriage is about love- not race, gender, age or anything else. We do not marry people because we grow older each day. We do not marry because it is convenient. We marry because we love someone so much that we want to spend every day with them. We marry to ensure that the one we love is taken care of, after we leave this world, in the form of a will. Heterosexuals in our country have always had the free will to choose who they will marry. Should not gays be allowed the same rights? Times have changed. To keep gay marriage illegal in the 21st century is archaic and barbaric. I’m sure that one day the officials who illegalize this act will agree with me. We have come so far from the days of slavery and segregation. Will we not progress even further? Shouldn’t we encourage the acceptance of all people?

Five. Only five out of a possibly fifty states. Only 10% of the United States allows gays to marry. A reason given for this minute number is tradition. It is tradition in this country for a man to marry a woman. But if we only stuck to tradition, we’d still be segregated and have debtors’ prison. Another reason given to support illegalizing gay marriage is the topic of procreation. Gay couples cannot naturally have children together. Preventing gays from marrying does not cause more heterosexuals to marry and conceive more children (Olson). Before heterosexual couples marry, we do not ask them if they intend to have children. So why on earth do we think that it is okay to forbid marriages of couples who cannot bear children together? If that is the case, then we must forbid marriages to those heterosexual couples who are sterile- and cannot conceive in any relationship.

To tell a man that he cannot marry the man he loves, or a woman cannot marry a woman she loves, is part of an archaic tradition. We are telling these people, those who love them, and society as a whole that their relationships are less worthy, less lawful, less eternal, and less cherished. We demean their relationships and we demean them as individuals (Olson). Homosexuals simply do not choose to be homosexual. At least, they do not choose to be homosexual anymore that I have chosen to be heterosexual. And I did not wake up one day and say, “Hmmm, I’m going to like men for the rest of my life.” I have a friend who happens to be gay. He told me that he was born that way. He knew his entire life that he liked men. You can even see it in his baby pictures. He knew he was gay. His family ended up accepting him for who he was. They never wondered if they could “return him to his straight status” because he was simply born gay. This friend wants to grow up, go off to college, get his dream job of being an architect, get married and adopt children. Why should he be refused that right to marry? He wants to live the American Dream. He wants to do his best by being a good citizen and raising good citizens in return.

I do not trust that our country can ever live up to the promise of equality, and the essential rights to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness, until we stop offensive discrimination on the basis of sexual orientation. I believe in love and marriage. I believe they go together like a horse and carriage (Sinatra). I believe in heterosexual and homosexual marriage, because marriage is based on love. Marriage is not based on gender, race, age, procreation or tradition. Marriage is only and solely about love. Homosexuals are not asking for special treatment. They are simply asking to be treated equally. They are people too. They are doctors, lawyers, teachers, constructions workers and soldiers too. They have helped to form the society we have come to know today. They should be allowed to bind their love for one another in an eternal vow of marriage.

Let’s All Complain, It Makes You Feel Better

January 31, 2010

I don’t see why we all feel the need to complain about Obama. sure he’s made a few mistakes, but so did Bush. it makes me so annoyed that people who don’t like Obama as a person just love to complain about it. they say he’s a socialist…NO he’s not. what really gets me is that people love to complain about him when he was not the one who chose to be elected. that part was left in the hands of your fellow americans. so how about instead of blaming a man who took on the responsibilities he was given to the best of his ability- blame the man standing right next to you.

Starting it Out

January 29, 2010

ok, so i dont know exactly how this whole thing is going to work. it’s my first blog. i am, as you would say, a blog virgin. so here it goes.

id like to start out by showing my writing skills…if i have any. let me know.

Part One

“Welcome back at Court Mistress Stuart.”

I lowered myself into a deep curtsey.

“Thank you, Your Grace,” I replied.

“And how did you find country life? You have been away for some time,” the Queen asked, bringing her goblet to her lips.

“The time I had away was lovely, Your Majesty, I must admit. I do love being here with Your Grace, but I find the quiet of the country vastly amusing.”

“I wish I know of what you speak,” she admitted.

“Your Grace, if I male speak freely?”

The regal queen nodded and looked intently at me.

“Your Majesty has indeed missed out on a pleasure that everyone should have,” I smiled.

“You are quite right. Welcome back.”

Just like that I was excused from her chambers. I lowered my head, my skirts pooling around my ankles and walked slowly from the Queen’s presence.

Just on the other side of the door was my father, Lord William Stuart.

“You have met with the Queen?” he asked impatiently.

“Yes.”

“Good. See to it that you do not mess up. We have wasted a great deal of time.”

I nodded. We walked in silence together toward our family apartments. Once inside, he walked with me to my private chamber.

“Good day, Father,” I said dutifully as I kissed his hand.

“Do your duty, my daughter, “ he replied quickly and walked out of out apartments toward the King’s chambers.

My father was never really one to show great affection to me. After all, I was only a daughter. My brother was truly my father’s gem. His affection surrounded little Peter- as well as my affections. My brother was much younger than me. Between Peter and me there were four stillbirths. But little Peter came in and saved my mother. Peter now served as my father’s heir to whatever title he would surely receive for attending the King for so many years.

Inside my private bedchambers, I changed from m travel gown. From my large trunk at the foot of my bed, I pulled a square-necked, emerald green, satin gown. The bodice fit quite snuggly at my waist and flared out to the hemline. I required the help of two chambermaids to help me put it on. I bent my head as they lifted the heavy gown over it. The maids pulled and tugged at the laces in the back to ensure that I could not breathe- typical of the English Court. I smoothed the trumpet sleeves- that were thankfully not lined in fur, as it was late spring. I sat in front of a large mirror and one maid attached a matching green hood to my head. She braided my long flowing hair and pinned the braids to my head- like that of a Greek Goddess.

A knock came at my door moments later. It opened without permission. I jumped from my seat to protest. But I stopped mid breath and gasped. Mary Carey ran into my room.

“Bella! It is so good to see you. It has been so long,” she cried, running to me.

Mary and I grew up together at Hever Castle. I had known her so many years- we were like sisters.

“Mary! It has been only a year, but it feels like an eternity has passed!”

We embraced each other. It had been hard to leave my best friend and confidant. It had been even harder to lie to Mary.

“How are you? I see you have recovered well.”

“Yes, I definitely need the time away. Our country home is so relaxing,” I replied, pulling her over to the fire to sit with me.

“I am so glad that you’ve recovered quickly,” she smiled.

“As am I. I am much better now.”

Mary smiled at me again. She had always been a kind hearted and happy person- quite the opposite of her younger sister Anne Boleyn.

“Are you ready to resume your place as a maid?” she giggled, “You have missed so much!”

“Oh yes. I know that I’ve been gone for a while but I’m still good at my job,” I laughed,

“Ah yes, but there have been so many additions tot eh Queen’s ladies.”

“Oh? Do tell!” I cried.

Mary moved closer to me as if to tell me a secret.

“Well, the little Jane Seymour has come to join us as well as Jane Parker.”

“Little Jane Seymour? That child? She is far too light headed to serve properly,” I laughed heartily.

“Yes. But she does seem to please Her Majesty. Perhaps she is a reminder of the Queen’s younger days?”

I shook my head, “I do not know, clearly.”

Mary stood quickly.

“Come, we must get to the feast. Their Majesties will be expecting us.”

“What on earth could there be to celebrate?” I asked, puzzled.

“Perhaps I should start from the beginning. Just after you left, His Majesty took a mistress- Bessie Blount.

“Bessie Blount? Her Majesty’s closest lady? How could this happen?”

Mary stood and walked over to the mirror and adjusted her hood. She breathed in deeply and turned to face me.

“The Queen has not become pregnant in quite some time. His Grace has not visited her, intimately, for almost as long. His Majesty is not one to resist. Mistress Blount was given no choice, I suppose. Soon she was with child. She passed it off as her husband’s, but no one really believed her. The King sent her away. He went to visit her and came back a fortnight ago crying of a son! Apparently he was given a son by Bessie.”

“Oh Mary, so much has changed! Poor Katherine! How is the Queen faring with this news?”

“Her Majesty welcomed Lady Blount to Court only yesterday. She is a very brave woman.”

“Incredible,” I added.

I sighed. I could believe that the King would find solace in the bed of another. But I could not believe that the innocent Bessie had betrayed the Queen.

“We’d better be going. His Majesty will be offended if we do not go.”

Mary nodded and crossed the room once again. She took my hand and helped me to my feet.

“Ready?” she asked, smoothing her crimson damask gown. She was quite a beautiful woman. Her husband was a lucky man.

I nodded.

The Great Hall was decorated in fine splendor. Millions of candles lit up the hall. The King sat in the middle of the long table at the head of the room. He was joyous and laughed heartily at the jokes told by his surrounding courtiers. The table before him was covered in all kinds of celebratory foods- roasted goose, fig pies, spiced plums and dates, venison and gallons of wine and ale. The room was bustling and people were dancing. It was quite a site to see.

“Mary I have not seen such splendor here. Even when the Princess Mary was born,” I whispered to her.

“Yes, but His Majesty has had a son bestowed upon him. Mary is a girl. A girl cannot be an heir to the throne. Not for King Henry anyway.”

I nodded. It was true. His Majesty needed a son, an heir to the English throne. Only a son would be able to protect our country. The King would never accept a female heir. England needed a strong, male heir and King Henry would have his heir regardless of how it happened.

His Majesty was laughing so loud that he could be heard over all the other people in the colossal hall.

“He must be happy,” Mary noted, walking closer with me.

We made our way to the Maids of Honor’s dining table. We sat down together and got as comfortable as possible.

“Of course he is happy. God has finally given him a son. He has proven to all that he can sire sons. It also means that it is Queen Katherine’s fault that England has no legitimate heir,” I said in a low voice.

“Shhh! Bella, do not speak of the Queen like that! What if someone were to hear you?”

“I was only saying what every other courtier will be thinking,” I reasoned.

Mary nodded. She knew I was right. She took a large gulp of her spiced wine. I didn’t much care for ale so I also took a goblet of wine.

“Look at that!” Mary pointed across the room.

“What am I looking at?”

“Ivan Buckingham. He is staring at you. He has no shame! Be wary of him, dear friend,” she warned, taking another sip of wine.

“Why?” I asked, looking dreamily at the most handsome man I had ever seen.

“He is known very well at Court. And he is not known for his discrete liaisons. He is a terrible man for the Maids of Honor. He is always with one. Just stay clear of him.”

“I see.”

I said no more of the Lord Buckingham. He was incredibly dashing. His muscles could be seen through his ornate doublet. His doublet and breeches were gold in color and were clearly made of the finest material. He also wore an Italian bonnet with a large white feather. He was quite well dressed. I could see how the other ladies may fall for him.

The King rose from his seat and jumped onto the table. His face showed his true happiness. King Henry was quite a youthful man. He was very athletic and handsome. He almost looked like a young boy.

“Lords and Ladies of the Court, it pleases me to announce that I have a son! You hear the God? I have a son! Ha!”

He sure looked like a little boy. It was good to see my sovereign so happy, but I did not approve of the circumstances that brought him such glee. The courtiers raised the goblets to the King in celebration and applauded. The King’s laugh bellowed once more through out the hall as he jumped down from the table. Just as Charles Brandon, the King’s most trusted friend, patted the King on the back. A herald entered the hall.

“The Queen,” he announced.

The smiles of the courtiers faded quickly. There were a few audible gasps as Queen Katherine entered the Great Hall, followed by her Spanish ladies. She floated across the room to the King’s table. She took a glass from a servant.

I leaned over to Mary, “What us she going to do?”

Mary shook her head, “I do not know.”

Queen Katherine raised the glass and nodded to His Majesty. He returned the nod and they both drank from their goblets. The King smiled; he had triumphed. But this smile was different from all the others. This smile was more a smile of duty. The Queen turned from His Majesty and left the hall. The entire scene lasted but a moment.

After the Queen and her entourage were gone, I could see almost everyone take in a deep breath and let it out. Charles Brandon smiled nervously at the King. Mary looked to me and smiled; a smile of relief.

“Her Majesty is quite a woman,” I said.

“Indeed,” a deep voice said from behind me.

I turned my head to see Ivan Buckingham looming over me.

“Care to dance?” he asked, extending his hand.

The musicians began to play a Volta.

“I must admit, Sire, that my Volta skills are less than impressive,” I giggled.

“Nonsense my Lady, I’m sure you’re a delightful dancer,” he insisted.

There was a certain air about Ivan. There was something about him that was irresistible. I grinned like a child and took his hand.

The Volta was a delightful dance in which ladies are lifted high off the ground by their partners. Some considered the dance vulgar since the ladies’ knees showed- but I truly loved the dance.

With a swish of my dress, Ian spun me around and lifted me high above the floor. He placed his hands upon my waist again and raised me up. His smile was genuine. How could such a kind man have such a bad reputation? As the dance ended, couples clapped and returned to their seats. Ivan bowed to me and kissed my hand.

“You are a good dancer; quite light on your feet,” he noted.

“Ah, but Sir, it is my partner who ensured that I was,” I laughed.

“Will you walk with me?” he inquired.

I weighed my options. What could it hurt? I nodded and took his arm.

He led me through the crowded hall and out onto the terrace. The night air was crisp and light. There was also a slight breeze that chilled my bare chest.

“You are cold?” he asked, removing his cloak.

He placed it around my shoulders and pinned it into place. It was a perfect shade of gold with red brocade accents. It was also lined with an expensive ermine fur.

“Your Grace is too kind,” I replied, lowering myself in thanks.

“Please, call my Ivan. There is no need for formality when we are alone.”

I smiled up at him, His hair glowed in the moonlight and his eyes shimmered.

“Tell me, do you plan on spending much time…alone?” I asked boldly.

“If it pleases you,” he replied.

For a moment, our eyes locked. He was handsome. And one could no believe every rumor heard at Court. My father had told me to cut everything I heard in two and then throw out one half. And then the half that remained, I should only believe half of that. Ivan seemed to be a perfect gentleman.

He reached out and traced the line of my jaw with his forefinger. I closed my eyes. His touch sent waves of pleasure through my body. I felt like a little girl. I was gigging uncontrollably. I was a bit ashamed. He lifted my face toward his and was leaned toward me.

“Bella, where are you?” she cried.

Mary gasped and ran straight back into the hall.

“Perhaps you should go,” he suggested.

I nodded in agreement. He took my hand once again and kissed. He swept into a low bow and I returned with a curtsey.

“Your Grace,” I said as I walked into the Great Hall once more. Ivan followed moments later.

Mary had returned to her seat and was eating her pudding. I sat down slowly beside her.

“I apologize,” Mary said without looking up.

“Mary, do not be angry. It was only a dance.”

“Oh I am not vexed,” Mary said with some sincerity.

I took her hand in mine.

“Mary you are my greatest ally here at Court. I have lost my seniority with Her Majesty’s ladies. Her Majesty has been kind to me, yes, but she is the only one. Besides you, of course.”

Mary turned to my, finally. She smiled and kissed my hands.

“And you are my greatest friend. Let us not talk of Lord Buckingham again.”


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